Tuesday, March 22, 2011

to my father


Just now, I let out a small gasp when I realized that the last date I posted was February 17. Just a few days before I wrote that post, I made a pact with myself to post more often. And then this big dark cloud passed over my head. I lost you on February 23 which has consumed me in a way I never imagined. I know you were incredibly proud of me so today I write this post in honor of you.

You were a quiet guy but when you spoke, we all listened. I loved that you called me your wandering gypsy when I was little. Maybe that's why I travel the world so much today. I never told you this but when I was five or six, I used to eat those raw quahogs out of the shell just to see that smile on your face. And all those years we spent cruising on the boat on Lake Winnipesaukee were some of my favorite memories. To this day, I love boats and the water because of you.

You told us all you were going on a long trip. You were right! I'll meet up with you one day in my travels and tell you all about everything you missed, ok?

Love you Dad,


Kalyn said...

You don't know me, but I am a fan of your blog and cookbooks. My own father died in January so I do know how such an event can really put a dark cloud over your world. I'm glad you remember the good times you had with your dad. Sending good thoughts for you and your family.

The Italian Dish said...

Oh, Joanne, I'm so sorry to hear that. Please accept my condolences.

Gene said...

I am so sad for you....it is very hard to lose your Dad at any time in life. Guess we are all "Daddy's Little Girls" forever. I feel a kinship with you since I, too, am from Massachusetts - Haverhill which is 30 miles north of Boston and I too have spent many summer hours on Lake Winnipesaukee. I now live in the SF Bay area and have attended a couple of your classes at Draegers in Danville. Enjoyed them immensely and look forward to the next time.

Carol said...

Joanne, We are so sorry for your loss. Ralph and I met you at the luncheon in North Hampton - Spoletto.
Our deepest sympathy to you and your family.

Janet said...

Losing my father just over five years ago left a hole in my heart that I thought would never be filled. But since that time I have been able to know that he lives there, and when I see a rainbow, I know that he is with us in spirit.

Does the feeling of loss leave us completely? No. As I write, there are tears of love.